i think i can..i think i can..

still running. when it's hard, i just tell myself to keep going. grrr.

on saturday's my second long run..i'm already getting nervous for it. why is that exactly? dunno.

for now, i just say,"i think i can..i think i can.."

pushing oursleves is a good thing.



on an entirley different note i have a story:

So, yesterday i woke up in a funk. just feeling overwhelmed with all the things that me and tyler are going to have to figure out and DO in the upcoming months ahead. I was feeling a little like a loser, that tyler's doing all the work. he's going to school, working his toosh off to ensure that we'll survive the next few months (until he graduates) and what do i do exactly? laundry? make meals? change poopy diapers? nothing that will put money in our pockets, or bring us any real milage. So, anyways, i needed to go to walmart real quick and buy some wipes, and lyn's really tired and grouchy, but i push on. As i'm ready to pay for my stuff, i realize that my debit card that i shoved in my pocket is gone. So i frantically re-trace my steps all over tthe store, nothing. i go out the car (which i had to park amile away because its always so packed. i hate walmart.) and my cards not there either. i grab so cash so i can at least get my stupid wipes and start the walk back to the store, on my way i pass this girl. a min later she's running up behind me and she asks if my name's courtney, i asnwer yes and she said she found my card and turned it in. i asked her why she stopped me?! we didn't know eachother, and she just replied "i dont know really." and walked away. it took everything (or an old man watching me from his car with his windows down) for me not to burst into tears right then and there. It was like, the Lord was giving me a reminder, He's still there, He's still watching out for us. That if we do our best, He'll be there for us. That my role as a mom is what i'm supposed to be doing. He's watched out for us thus far, why would he abandon us now? answer: He isn't.

anyways, a good moment for me. and it's still with me just as strong, i hope i can hold on to that as we trudge on! :)