i have a question that i have found myself asking, myself quite frequently these days. well, as you can see above, i have this great little girl in my life. and she really is that, my life. well, her and her father. BUT, that's a whole different story. anywaysss. so, this little chica, i love her, well there isn't even a word in the english language that can describe how much i love her, you see. ANd she's going to be 2 in april. so...lets do some math here, shall we? some say that its great to have your kiddos 2 years apart. well, since its already jan.. that's impossible. (and planned) so..the question is, time's a tickin' and i juts don't know when i'll ever be ready to pop out another one. remember how much ilove my little munchkin? well, the problem is, what if i can't love anoteher one as much as i love the one i alrady have? or what if, i have another one, and the one that i can't live withou, has to go without mom, because mom has another babe strapped to her...well you know. i can't bear the thought, of my sweet girl, getting replaced. that sounds horrible. but i don't know how else to put it.
i know your probably thinking i'm a horribly selfhish, crazy loonatic. get over it courtney. mom's have more than one kids every day. whats the big deal? i dunno what the big deal is. but, here's the thing...times a tickin...and i ain't planning on getting with child anytime soon....i feel like this is a problem.
good thing this is my blog...or else someone might be mad at me for disturbing their blog with all these mixed up feelings huh?
8 comments:
I totally understand what your saying but think about this, and this is something my sis mentioned to me,... would've heaven forbid something happened to lynley someday and you had no other children. Is that it for you and ty? No grandchildren, no posterity to surround you on holidays, nothing. And, think of all the things she would miss out on, not having any siblings. The every night slumber parties, the playing house together, not to mention the lessons learned from sharing, getting along with others, etc. What about family vacations? How lonely to be just you and your parents.
Girl, you know how much I understand your thoughts and you know how much I've struggled with having only two.. but I would still do it again no questions. And of course you'll be able to love more than one child, just like you love more than one of your siblings. Just wait another year and when she starts getting into the really terrible twos, maybe you'll start wanting a baby again who just sits and smiles and coos and adores you :) Sorry about the book I wrote
totally feel you miss...i deal with thoughts like these daily. pure teter-toter of emotions on this subject.
here's another thing to think about.. what if mom had the exact same feeling and decided she would stick with just phil, none of us would be where are now, and you wouldn't have the love of your life to stand beside you through all your joys and trials... just a thought.
plus you and ty are the only ones who we know can produce a girl!
At a recent conference, a general authority got up and said, "The commandment to multiply and replenish the earth is still in force," or still applies to today's times. Also, before my mother died I had three kids and Brittney was 2 1/2 years old, she looked at me and said, Sanette, it's time you had more kids. So I am telling you this as a loving mother would tell her daughter, Courtney, it is time you had more kids. The commandment to multiply still applies. What you will end up with is a rotten Lynley. The reasons you are giving for not wanting more kids are things that are not possible in my mind. I have loved all my kids so much and it makes me sad to think that you could be missing out on all the love and good times they provide. I am so sad to know that Tanner is my last kid, if I could have had more I would have. They are my life, my joy my world, everything good in this life revolves around my family, so don't limit yourself. I love you and I want more grandkids. :)
can you imagine how much happier mom and dad would've been had they stopped after having me.. oh the thought...
phil
HAHA thats was a good one phil!!
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