A plus to nursing? I get a perfect excuse to stop whatever I'm doing and sit and cuddle and think...every 2 hours. ( yes we are still on a newborns schedule lol )
I am packing. And cleaning. We are officially done with our VRBO here in Arizona. And the owner is.giving me.the cleaning fee for cleaning it. And honestly, its at least 65% more clean now then when we showed up.
Me and Tyler were up at 4 am. Both...just feeling crushing pressure and stress. The sources are not all the same, and our reactions aren't the same either...but the crushing-ness is the same.
We both have felt like we are at the edge of something...like something is just out of grasp. We both feel, a little alone, spiritually. Like.. this is what a "refiners fire" might feel like.
But... We will not waiver. Because we both know, with every fiber of our being that there is a plan. And it isn't our plan...because we don't really have one. But He does. And.. through the overwhelming ness and stress and the scary unknown..that faith gives us a glimmer of hope. A glimmer of peace.
Holding on to that is tricky.
The saving grace in all this is.. we have eachother. And we like eachother so much. And we trust eachother, so much. And we have these two beautiful, sweet, innocent little girls. Who believe in us one hundred and fifty percent. Their belief is so moving. They think we are awesome! Even if we are just totally winging it. :)
So, on to a nasty days inn for three days, then to the next hotel until dad is done with his project, then to our home to pack, then....who knows! Hopefully that part of plan will fall into place, sooner then later! :)
1 comment:
You are amazing at portraying things as they are. I loved this post. I'm sure that as you take that step of faith into the darkness, you'll see everything more clearly. :) I'm excited to see where you end up!
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