a year! i cannot understand how a year with callie has come and gone. from the second that i found out i was pregnant with her.. she's changed me and our lives. i was so scared to have her. the night i went in to be unexpectadly induced, i stood in the shower, crying, and crying and crying. i was so, scared. i was scared for the change. i was scared that i wasn't going to know how to have 2 children.
her birth was the most magical expirience. it was hard, but it was so sweet. tyler pulled her out of me. it was calm, and peaceful, and i felt heaven in that hospital room as they placed her on me. she was beautiful and she was perfect, and she was ours.
the first few months were hard. nursing was hard. the adjustment was hard. but she never gave up on me. she never turned away.. she was willing to let me keep trying, she didnt' care if i had to cry it out every single night at 8:15. the post pardum was hell.. but that sweet little thing.. she loved me no matter what.
that's the thing about Callie Z... it's her gift i believe.
she makes people feel loved. many many times i have had such amazing moments with her.. she makes me feel love from her, and from my Father in Heaven. she just, reaches into you and warms you up from the inside out. i am so greatful for her, and her giant spirit in my life.
a sister. it's something that as a child i never got to expirience. i later got a little taste with my step siblings, and my half sister give me a peek into that relationship, although our 17 year age difference makes our relationship unique. anyways, lynley and callie.
sisters.
i cherish their relationship. i marvel as i watch it develop everyday, as i see callie light up when lynley walks into the room. when i watch as lynley sweetly helps her to walk, to to reach something callie can't. i melt as callie goes in for a big open mouth kiss, and lynley giggles and squeels. i pray that they become eachothers best people in the whole world. that some day when i am gone, they have eachother.
we had pizza for dinner, callie's fav. then sang and plopped a giant cake in front of her. she didn't want to get her hands dirty it was pretty dang cute.
as i watched back a video of the "happy birthday" i could see lynleys face.. and i wanted to cry. i went into her room after she'd been tucked in and told her how proud i was of her. she is such a good big sister, and she had tried really really hard to make callie's birthday a special day. she let her play with all her toys, and wrapped her presents, and just was so so so excited for her. she kept saying "callie! it's your special day!" i am so greatful for that sweet girl.
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