yuck.

can i just vent for a sec?

we went to lyn's pediatrician (well not her normal one, he's in hati so iwas just seeing another doc at the practice) for her 9 mo check up and to remove her stitches she ahd put in on saturday. I have been taking care of those things like it's life or death, trying to do everything to keep the scarring to a min. So, we are sitting there, she's in her diaper waiting. First, a nurse about my age (nice girl) comes in asks the normal questions, weighs her in (19lbs) and then starts to look at the stitches to remove them. HA! she gets the first one out. at this point lyn is just slightly annoyed, but fine. if you know lynley, you know that she NEVER cries. and when she does, its more like a whimper. Okay, so the doc comes in and asks some more q's...does the normal feel her belly thing, and then starts at the stitches. she has me lay her on the paper bed (which is really freaking lynley out, we 're not used to paper beds here) and has me LAY ON TOP OF HER restraining her body while the other nurse has her hand wrappped around her head and NECK to restrain her head while this doctor goes to town on her cut. i havve NEVER heard lynley cry like taht. the doctor lies to me by saying "oh this isnt hurting her..." HA! seh can't get the stitches out. SHE CAN'T GET THEM OUT. hello? she's a DOCTOR. this is my DAUGHTER. my BABY daughter moind you. you can't tell her "oh honey relax, it'll be over in a second" she is just squirming and screaming & crying. i was fine..for the first 15 min of doctorS (yes there were 3, with magnifying glasses, bright lights and more restraining) digging into her GASH. the last ten min. i was having a really REALLY Hrd time keeping it together. i ask to leave the room, and let the nurses take care of it, i literally cannot stand to restrain my daughter any longer. NOPE. they tell me i need to stay on top of her. ?? Okay, so at this point, i'm crying, she's STILL going crazy, a new doctor is now digging at her eyebrow, the gash is totally re-opened and bleeding litk crazy, AND THERE IS STILL ONE STITCH THEY CANNOT GET OUT. the last one's knot is right at the skin. SO, the only thing to do (i guess) is to just cut her skin to get it out. FUN RIGHT? and i'm here bawling now, as the glue her gash back up. i FINALLY get to hold her! she was dripping with sweat, her cheeks are BRIGHT red, and she is shaking like a leaf.

BONUS-- She has 5 shots to get..the reason we're here. i tell the doc that i just want to wait. i'll come back in a week or something and do them, i'm not worried about a couple of shots, im' worried that my baby's going have to freak out aigan. WE just cant handle anything else today. what does she say? well look, i already have the shots ready, so i think we should just go ahead and do them, ok? (in my head i was thinkin, UH NO, THATS NOT OKAY. NOT OKAY AT ALL) but..i'm i guess i was just overwhelmed, and exaushted, and pressured. so she got the shots. more screaming (but nothing like the restrained screams)

FINALLY we get to leave that hell hole. I wish WISH WSIH our doctor would've been there. i think that this would've gone a lot differently.


anyways, thanks for letting me get that off my chest. sorry if it doesn't make muich sense. hope your'e having a better day then us :)