in order to sleep.

i must write. first.
i am having an amazing time in brazil.
amazing.

but, things are different for me now, then they would've been 3 years ago.
tonight we skyped.
and lynley wouldn't even look at me.
she cried, she shook her head no when i told her i missed her.
and i do.
i miss that girl like i'm missing a limb.
during the day, we're so busy, that i'm distracted, and having so much fun.
but at night..especially tonight. my heart is aching. so bad.
and she's sick. runny nose, fever, sore throat. the works.
ugh.

i already drownded my sorrows in brigadaro (spelled completely wrong)
and now, i'm about to hop into bed, and pray i don't cry myself to sleep.
my poor girlfriend.
she doesn't know how to express herself..she knows that i'm not there.
and that thigns are not normal.

she will forget though, right?

okay, this is my last pity party post, if i post anything more at all, it'll be a trip udate!
today we went to ebum, a shopping place with tons of little stores and little stands.
i got al sorts of amazing gems!
i love shoppig here, it's like using play money~ haha that's what it feels like to me.
and then, we went to the bakery, and splurged.
and we were all so tired, that we came home and ate..and just chiled.

i LITERALLY haven't stopped eating. i can't stop!
i may or may not come back a whale..but the food is sooooooooo good.
oh my heavens. it's all amazing.

tomorrow is sunday/church day. and me and dad are speaking.
i have no clue what i am going to say..but i need to get something together,
because dad will kill me if i stand up and bear my testimoney and leave him another 45 minutes.
HA!

things are good. i feel so blessed, and am realyl having the time of my life.

if only my baby would be happy!