Gets me everytime.

Okay, so I am realizing something. 

And it makes me down right mad.

Every Mother's Day, I feel terrible. I want to hide under my covers and cry. I doubt myself like crazy. I wonder if my girls know how much I love them. I wonder if I am doing it right? No, I actually begin to believe this I am doing it all wrong.

Why?

This isn't my normal outlook on my life.

Mostly I love it. I am confident in my role. 

Most days I feel good about myself. I love this job.

But for some reason.... Mother's Day turns into... This hideous day where I decide to change my mind about it all. The Diapers and feedings and make believe and all of it just becomes too much.

I was doing a little pondering meditation or whatever you wanna call it and I realized that these feelings do no come from y Heavenly Father.  

Because He wants me to be happy. And to feel fulfilled. And being a mom, is what he put me on this earth to do.

So then... There's only one other place this comes from. And he's a nasty nasty sneaky thing. He's always trying to destroy my Mother's Day! Damn him!

Well, not this year. This year, I am kicking all that bad stuff to the curb. Because guess what?!

I L O V E being a mom. And it makes me so dang happy. All the hard stuff is worth it times 100. 

So here's to Mother's Day! And enjoying every second.