hi. it's me here.. reporting from 790 Casper Ln's basement couch.
we've moved, agian.
limbo is basically our new last name.
but..i mean. i don't know. i was open on blogger and i all of a sudden wanted to write agian.. i used to write here all the time. daily even. and it'sbeen so long. i can't even remember the last time.
and now that i am writing.. i am not so sure that i want to anymore haha isn't that the way it goes?
oh my gosh. i was just sitting here and literally, a spider the size of a DIME just dropped from the ceiling right next to me.
i mean, i am now on the verge of tears. so, maybe this isn't such a good idea anymore.
limbo & spiders? this is epic.
catch up at this point is kind of, a joke. ya know?
lets see ok, yes here it goes:
ahem, hello! remember me? remember us? well, life here is good. tyler is working with evergreen (a john deere dealership that he grew up by) he is loving being "home" here in the colombia basin.
lynley is in preschool one day a week, and just a typical 4.5 year old going on 15 year old. she still has my favorite curly light brown hair, who is getting really good a cartwheels, and is so good at making friends. she is into the library and checking out no less then 12-15 books each time. she is a dang good babysitter, and likes to boss callie around. she's learning the value of a chore chart. as am i. she still likes to cuddle, and kiss me on the lips. she has a new dog named "pixie", and is looking forwrad to some kitties? (we'll see if gram can give up one or two...) she is adjusting to country life well. although somedays we both go a bit stir crazy..and to town we go!
callie girl has 2 bottom teeth! as of last week. she's just shy of 11 months. she is so sweet. she just came that way.. and that baby makes me so... FULL. my little constant.. through all this. she's always there with a big gummy grin for mama. sleep? eh.. she's not so great at that..but i am hanging in there. she loves lynley.. a lot. and she really likes to play with toys, wich is new to me. she is teeny tiny.. and our little cuddle bug. she's my baby!
me? i am adjusting. somedays are better then others... i am elarning that i do not need all the answers. i am learning that, just going one day at a time is a-okay. (i feel bugs on me right now..how am i going to sleep?!?! damn spider!) we are moving to the little house on the hill soon, and then i am sure it will bring a new meaning to "country living" i am talking wood burning fire place here. ya know? things that.. intimatade me to be quite honest. scare me. i mean a fire, in the house. i know that iit's not the most dramtic thing in the world..and i am honestly thrilled to just "land" somewhere after all the limbo crap. somedays i am so ahppy. i am so full of gratitude and love and peace. somedays i feel like i will never be able to do this. it's all new..and i am just a girl, trying. buying milk and meds and tampons in bulk. ha. but really. i mean... we're 30 min to the nearest gas station.. theres no running to walmart for sugar anymore.
at the end of the day, we are blessed. we are healthy, and we are toghether. if there is anything that we ahve learned through all this... 2013 maddness is that life is not on our terms. that if we have faith, and are truley living by faith.. then what we want, our plans..they are far from "set in stone". that there is a plan. and a bigger picture. we may not see it now..but eventually we will.
when we want to give up, when it all feels maybe, too much.. that, right then. that moment(s) is when it matters. that's when our character is measured. that's when it's the most important. who cares if you can be awesome and faithful and happy when your life is awesome and easy and happy. we are made into something better and stronger when we choose faith, and happiness when our lives are hard, and dark, and unsure...
it's like when i am running, and i a want to stop. my legs are screaming, and i just want to STOP.... i tell myself that at that moment.. keeping giong is the most important. overcoming that voice in my head telling me to stop.. makes me stronger. it gives me the strength the next time to keep going.. to never give up.
never. give. up.
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