two things

yesterday, shopping for a couch with my mom & kiddos, i seriously was losing it with lynley.
i have never seen her act this way! running. screaming. literally. bossing around the sweet ladies that worked there, begging and throwing herself on the ground for their crackers. did i say screaming?
i was trying to make a big decision.
and in that sweaty moment, i wanted to beat my child.

and then, last night, reading updates on Clara..
i felt so so guilty.
lyn may have been a terrible little two year old at the store today.
but at least she's healthy enough to be terrible.
i'd bet Natasha would give anything to have a sweaty screaming two year old! instead of hers coming out of a 5 hour surgery removing a not shrinking tumor from her stomach.

man.
sometimes i forget...
& i feel so guilty afterword.
we're so blessed!
i need to stop forgetting.

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also, on a really funny note.
hahah
so, there was this mysterious thing on my car last night. i tought maybe some oil got splashed on my car from the equipment tyler had been working on the night before..or something! it wouldn't scratch off...paint maybe? it wasnt' a whole lot..just probably 15 little dots.
so tyler comes over to give his expert opinion on the matter. and what do you think he did?
hahah
oh just licked it.

then proceeded to spit and about puke.
i ask him..why would you ever reach out your tongue to the outside of a car to figure out an unknown substance?????

no one will ever know.

oh it came off.
(best part..expert opinion? he was so sure it was fly poop. no tyler. flys don't poop 15 distinctive black dots on someones car. but he was really concernced. THEN WHY DID YOU LICK IT IN THE FIRST PLACE? haha)