a detox of sorts.

i have done detox's before..not pregnant. the detox's i have done involve cutting out foods (some, food all together) and drinking juices, taking supplements etc.

i am starting a detox today, but a totally different kind! i am so excited.

basically, this detox is not going to focus just on my physical well being, but my spiritual, and emotional well being as well. i am going to take this whole week, and practice some serious self control, and do some real self reflection, as well as detox my body and get back into a healthy, happy place.

i am human. i get into negative self talk "ruts" i call them. where, it is more a chore to see the happy in life then the sad. this is not my natural state! not at all. chalk it up to pregnancy hormones, or seeing a number on a scale or whatever, i am ready for some change.

physically, i am going to continue my daily exercise, and clean out our pantry. make a trip to costco, and start blending a few green smoothies. i also plan on doing some organizing in our home..things that have been making me crazy (like my pots and pans cupboards..my tupperware..that cupboard where all your mixing bowls and random glass platters and mixers you never use turn into a cupboard you just never want to open)
living in a physically clean space makes me happy, makes me energized, and more productive.

another huge part of this detox is my spiritual and emotional well being.
i feel like i know myself pretty well.. i know when i am not in perfect working order. and usually when one thing falls off the wagon, everything is effected. so, i am going to do some consistent "search, pondering, and praying" this week. and i'm also going to start something sort of new, what i'm going to call "happy time". a basic, meditation time, controlling my thoughts, and focusing on all the happy. all the blessings. i am going to start with 3 minutes. and hopefully be able to increase that time as i get better at it.

what sparked this?
do you ever feel, like you're floating through your day?
i have been floating. and with only three short months left in this pregnancy, i not only am desperate to be totally present and fully "here" with my two loves these last few months, but i also am desperate to be my absolute best in three months when our new little one joins this family. i feel a huge sense of responsibility to be my best for her, and for lynley, and for my husband. i see my habits, spirituality, and physical well being effect my family directly.

i believe that being a woman holds huge amounts of power. that we have more influence and power on our people around us then we even know. we can make things happen. we can intuitively know and sense danger, opportunity, and the intentions of others. we can be connected to our children and husbands, in a way that protects them, and makes them feel so loved, and so happy. being a woman is a divine role, i have no doubt about that.
so i feel like its my most important mission to be my best. not just for myself, but for the most important things in my whole life. my family!