the end of my pregnancy was stressful. first of all.. we learned some really awful news about uncle jake. he got diagnosed with stage 3 melanoma (skin cancer) i'll do a post about that another time. but.. this news just really.. rocked our families world. and i was feeling so overwhlemed with, homesickness to be there with them. the upcoming huge changes to our little family. trying to keep it all together. and my blood pressure was on the boarder of preeclampsia levels. my doctor was concerned... and was wanting to induce me early.. but with all the upcoming events with grandma's funeral and such, i just really felt strongly that i needed to keep this baby in as long as possible.
the end was miserable. but... i was so thankful that Heavenly Father let her stay in just a few extra weeks to get her closer to "term" and to ease the burden on me. i also was very stressed, and just overwhelmed with the thought that my mom wouldn't be able to be at the birth. she has been at the other two girls births.. and delivering in a new place, without her just seemed so unfair.
anyways.. the morning on grandma's funeral, i started having contractions. although i had had consistant contractions pretty much the whole pregnancy.. these were different. i knew it. i was trying to push them out of my mind, as i carried callie around the whole day. until the grave side service.. i just was so nervous about going back home. about being so far away from the hospital.
so.. we went in to get me chekced out, just to be sure. sure enough, my contractions were hard and i was def in the early stages of labor. but my doctor wasnt on call!? the nurse was so helpful, and gave me some nice drugs, and told me to hold out until monday morning early. the drugs were amazzzzzzing. my blood pressure instantly went right back to my normal levels--and i felt normal and happy for the first time in weeks.
i went home and i slept for a solid 14 hours :)
sunday i took it verrrrrry easy and did some cleaning and packed our bags.
sunday night we went over to brad and sanettes for dinner, and we put the kids to bed there, knowing that we'd be going into the hospital early the next morning. i hate hate hate leaving my girls for things like this. they dont even udnerstand what is going to happen. how everything changes over night. i cried and cried leaving them there. it's a heart wrenching thing for me.. and i abslutley dreaded it my whole pregnancy. i am so thankful that i knew what good hands they were in. what a blessing!
we went home, and i just cried alot i think. then we went to bed, and got up around 5am the next morning. we got in the car, and stopped at dennys for breakfast, and made it to the hospital. i wasn't really having many regualar contractions.. and my doc didn't come back on until 7am. the nurses kept me unitl then, and he admitted me. i was 39.5 weeks!! go me!
they got me all hooked up and then inserted a "gel" to my cervix to get my contractions going. man oh man they came. i was handling them pretty good actually.. and after a few hours i was on my feet, really breathing through them. chewing ice. and just... not really sure where i was at. in the past i've always had me epidural before the first real contraction ha. it was so nice to be able to get up and walk around! and they even let me eat all morning! anyways.. my nurse came in, becuase the babies heart beat was doing something wonky.. and decided to check me. even though we all anticipated at least another 10 hours of labor easily. she tried to check me.. but just could NOT. i was too posterior i guess.. she tried and tried.. and i cried and cried in pain. it was horrible. she finally went and got a different nurse, who checked me and we all were shocked. she says "you are at a 6! are you getting an epidual? you need to get it now!" i was already shaking like a leaf, and just hyperventalating. tyler was right next to me the whole time, trying to get me to breathe normally.. to no avail. we both knew how fast i go froma 6 to a 10.. the nurses hunted down the anesthiologist and he came in so quick. i got in position to get my epidural.. and was just in so much pain. i had hit a total wall. and i just couldn't even handle it. i was shaking. crying. hyperventalating, and it felt like an out of body expirience. the guy was amazing, and i managed to hold perfectly still, praying, out loud, please, please, please, let me be able to do this. please. please.
almost instantly i was feeling a thousand times better. i was itchy/warm all over my body and i could breathe again! i enjoyed about an hour of that bliss, before the initial numbness wore off, and before the other stuff could kick in.. i was in transition, and it was time to push.
it's something that during if someone had told me "you'll want to feel this after!" i would've yelled at.. but after i was so happy it happened the way it did. i felt it all. the pressure. the ring of fire. i pushed, so freaking hard. i pushed for 2:54seconds and she was here! we video'd the whole birth and i am like "ohhhhh it hurtsssss! it hurtssss! ohhhhh! we have a BABYYY!" It is pretty funny.
and that was it! no tearing, no damage down there at all really. delivering the placenta was pretty incredible, to be able to feel it all, i dunno the sense of relief was instant!
they put little Ellie right on my chest and she didn't move for a few hours. she smelled like HEAVEN. and i was in heaven. she weighed in at 6lbs 11 oz! holy moly! :)
even though my mom wasn't there.. my doctor was amazing, and tyler was AMAZING. he was just right where i needed him when i needed him there. i never had to ask, or wonder. he was just there. saying what i needed him to say. being exactly what i needed him to be, and then some.
we make a really good team, and together with God, we brought a really amazing beautiful little girl into this world.
i am so thankful for the whole expirience. and the moments of heaven that we had. the whole labor and delivery was like 7 hours. and we went home the next evening at like 7pm. it was amazing.
aunt brittney and brianna brought lynley up that night to get a peek at the new babe. lyn was very emotional entering the room. she was mixed up, she missed us (hadn't eaten in a whole day and a half) and she was excited to finally meet this little baby of hers. she got to watch her first bath, and hold her. i hated saying goodbye to her. she was sad to leave, i know. ugh just thinking about it sorta breaks my heart again. she was such a big girl. i remember having her like it was yesterday. she really is an amzing big sister... i will do a little post on her later :)
we brought her home, and the girls were in love right away.
we are so thankful to have little Elle J (hard not to call her LLcoolJ haha) in our family!
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