grrrr.

why?

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2:15-2:50
invention of nursing bra/undershirt. only to find out that there is already some great options.

2:50-3:30
deciding that i am still in check with my uterus and our need for nursing bras

3:30-3:35
facebook stalking...not too eventful

3:35-3:38
pee break from not sleeping

3:38-4:01
listen agonizingly as lynley has a cough attack, and then recovers. you know..debating whether to rush in or let her be big.

4:01-4:44
tel myself over and over and over and over that i am tired. that i must sleep.

4:44-5:10
start tihnking about all the things that i need to pack for our trip to san diego. yeah the trip that isn't even really planned yet. that trip. guess you can never be too prepared?

5:10-5:30
suffer from hunger pains. i suppose i was thinkin up an appetite?

5:30-6:10
decide to use this unconventional time to do some positive imagining or whatever its called and picture me kicking butt on my Saturday run.

6:10-6:30ish
listen to ty's alarm go off..him get up..shower..get dressed..& bang around in the kitchen

7:00
kiss goodbye and ty's gone. and then the noise of the baby miserably opening her watery eyes, and coming to reality that she still cant breath.

and here we are.

TMI?

yeahhh.